Today Robert (my baby's father) had his last conversation with me. He still wants to come back to me in exactly 2 months. Which would be October 9th. His plans for us consists of both of us working and improving ourselves as individuals with the end result being that we keep our child instead of adoption.
I'm not thrilled about this break but I have come to terms with it. I am hoping that in the end we fix ourselves once and for all and we fall madly in love again. I know he'll be scared to be with me again. But maybe will warm up to it after seeing how we can not only make a life together work, but have it be extraordinary.
R.I.P. to the old me, my friendship with Jordan, my self doubts and negative thoughts. I'm gonna get the life I want, with my new baby, and hopefully the man I love by my side. For the long haul, marriage type of shit.
I'm ready for you future. Bring it.
