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Robert said that he doesn't understand what Jordan likes about me...that kinda made me upset. Jordan has always thought I looked stunning, Robert always thought I was funny. He said he doesn't get it because Jordan has pulled "badder bitches"...no one gets it. My looks never meant I had an ugly heart. I was never shallow. Jordan saw more than looks because believe me...I really did look different in my early teenage years. I looked great. But I was also a lot of fun.
I feel so fucking LONELY. I don't have anyone to call. I used to switch between Robert, Salvador and Jordan. This sucks.
My parents are both missing a few screws. So...forget them. I'm trying to think more positive I'm just nervous still. Lately I've really been wanting to do adoption. I can't see myself raising the baby. Another part of me is terrified of doing the adoption. What if I do back out and I end up breaking a lovely couple's heart? It would break my heart. :( Especially a gay couple. They're so beautiful to me.